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I’m here again living with another episode of depression. I cry each and every morning despite my efforts not to. I get anxious tackling the most simplest of tasks and lack the confidence to tackle activities I normally enjoy. It’s been a while since I’ve written a post and I’m hoping writing will help meContinue reading “Moments passing through depression.”

I think I’ve written about gratitude before but I feel the need to write about it again. Practising gratitude is a powerful tool to use to help you appreciate what you have not what is missing. It also helps you look at your life from a positive perspective. I have found it very helpful. AllContinue reading “Gratitude”

I wish I wasn’t so mind numbingly tired. I wish I could wake up in the morning not feeling nauseous. I wish I had an appetite. I wish I could walk along the beach. I wish I could hug and kiss my grandsons and share a home cooked meal with my children. I wish IContinue reading “I wish…”

My roadblocks are thoughts that I am having difficulty accepting. Right now my most common thought is that I’m finding it very hard to accept that my depression and anxiety is a diagnoses that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. My experiences with depression and anxiety are mentally andContinue reading “Roadblocks”

Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome. An anxiety attack can be debilitating. It can stop you in your tracks and send you into a panic attack. I’ve had enough of anxiety. It’s disturbing, it’s all too frequent and it’s difficult to control. I just want someContinue reading “Anxiety”

Reading is something I love to do so when I can’t read due to my anxiety and depression I’m devastated. This time however things were different. I really made a huge effort (not that I hadn’t in the past) to read and it worked. A friend lent me the biography Becoming Michelle Obama. I’ve struggledContinue reading “Reading”

Today I had a haircut something that needed doing weeks ago if only I had had the energy and motivation to have had it done. Finally, when I could no longer stand my fringe in my eyes I decided to make an appointment. I also chose the luxury of having a shampoo too, something IContinue reading “Haircut”

Today is Lewis’s 35th birthday. I often wonder what he would look like, where he’d be living, what he’d be doing. Would he have a family to celebrate with? I never forget him but I especially remember him on his birthday and the anniversary of his death. At 21 the age he died he wasContinue reading “Happy Birthday Lewis”

Yesterday and today I have felt very fragile. Apart from the obvivous depression and anxiety I have not had much of a clue why some days are worse than others and on those days I can fall to bits. Just like the ocean critter a Brittle Star. Did you know that a Brittle Star whichContinue reading “Brittle Star”

Again I find myself in a deep depression. It is so hard to deal with since it came back so quickly following my discharge from hospital. I’m frustrated, angry, sad and too many other emotions to describe. It has been many weeks since I last wrote a blog. I was hoping it may help meContinue reading “I’ve got the Blues”