Haircut

Today I had a haircut something that needed doing weeks ago if only I had had the energy and motivation to have had it done. Finally, when I could no longer stand my fringe in my eyes I decided to make an appointment. I also chose the luxury of having a shampoo too, something I haven’t done in years. This was a big deal, finally doing something I’d been worrying about for weeks.

When I’m depressed and anxious I feel exhausted mentally and physically. My mood swings are unpredictable and my worrying excessive. Coping with a mundane task like washing up or having a haircut is challenging but today I did both as well as unpack the dishwasher. This was a pat on the back moment for me but then when I returned from the hairdresser I burst inexplicably into tears and had to go and lay down just for a short time where I regathered my compsure and brought back my focus to the present moment.

I’m trying so very hard to be mindful and not dwell on things to come. It’s a challenge but I’m trying everyday to stay in the present moment. Writing my blog/diary helps me to stay focused and today I’m going to try some sewing. By the way this post took forever to write but I finally finished it. Another accomplishent.