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Patience is a virtue so the saying goes. Unfortunately when I am unwell I’m not very patient. I want to be well yesterday. Even though I am making small steps in the right direction I feel keen to hurry things up. All good things come to those who wait. Well I’m sick of waiting. I’veContinue reading “Patience”

Anxiety can sometimes be inexplicable. Creating problems where once there was none. Causing paralysis instead of action. Manifesting it self in strong body sensations like a pounding heart. A simple task like washing up has caused in me a great deal of anxiety until this morning when I finally overcame my avoidance of the task.Continue reading “Washing Up”

I find writing cathartic. A couple of years ago I started a blog using Word Press. I have no idea how to use most of the features available in Word Press but I muddle along. I even bought a Word Press for Dummies book which is incredibly long and detailed but am still no clearerContinue reading “Writing”

Yesterday fourteen years ago my father died. I miss him. He was a larger than life character with strong opinions and a great sense of humour. I remember sitting with him listening to The Goon Show on the radio. He would have tears streaming down his face whilst many of the jokes went over myContinue reading “My Father’s Genes”

It’s taken a long time for me to accept that I have a disorder that will be with me for the rest of my life. Bi-polar disorder manifests itself in different ways. Basically a person with Bi-polar will experience periods of mania or hyper-mania that is an elevated mood and times of depression, low orContinue reading “Acceptance”

For the last 24 years I have had bouts of depression and anxiety. The last few years have been particularly bad with one episode after another. I have had countless different drugs and treatments and several admissions to hospital. Now I am on another drug and holding out hope that this will help lift meContinue reading “Dark and Difficult Days”

I have emerged like a moth heading for the light. How good is it to feel positive and happy. Free of anxiety and panic attacks. I can go ahead with little to be concerned about and everything to look forward too. At first it is a surprise because I was a doubter. I doubted gettingContinue reading “The Light at the end of the Tunnel”

Today I had the pleasure of feeling well again. I’m not referrring to physical wellness but rather mental well being. It’s an amazing state to be in. It’s like looking at yourself through a shiny new microscsope. One that was given for free. How does one explain such a turn around in the heart, suchContinue reading “… say it with love.”

This past few weeks I have experienced mood swings which are a challenge to deal with. Some days I’m dealing with very low moods. These are the times where I break down crying for no apparent reason. At these times I wonder if I’ll ever know ‘normal’ again. Most often during the course of theContinue reading “Roller coaster”

It has been two months since I had both knees replaced. Initially in pre-op I was very anxious about having such major surgery and worried about how much pain there would be. Looking back I need not have worried. Sure there was pain but there was also plenty of pain killers available when ever IContinue reading “Two New Knees”