I’ve had a difficult time over the past couple of weeks having fallen into a deep depression that saw me admitted to a mental health clinic in Sydney. Now I am able to go home. I hope I never have to go through such a black time again. I spent days with high anxiety and days wishing I was dead it is too dreadful to recount but writing about it helps. I know now it’s not my fault when I fall into a black hole. It’s the chemical imbalance in my brain. I know now not to blame myself when I need to go into hospital to receive treatment to restore my brain to balance once again.
Now I am going home and I’m looking forward to my own bed and walks along the beach but above all I am looking forward to seeing my family. I am a little apprehensive about going home and leaving all the support I had in hospital. Once I get home I will be taking it slow and putting into place all the things that will help me stay well.
I can can look back to when I was admitted to hospital and recall the great distress I was in. Today I can reflect and see the progress I have made thanks to medication and support programs. It’s been a really difficult time and now I am ready to come home.
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