You would’ve noticed it’s been many days since I last wrote in my online journal. Today is the first day of a new chapter hopefully not the last.
We left home early March for a holiday in New Zealand. Before we left I was unwell. I was managing to participate is some activies but on the whole I kept my anxiety and depression to myself. It has been a very difficult five months, the longest I have ever been unwell ever. It was a tortuous few weeks where not a day passed where I wasn’t worrying uncontrollably about anything and everthing. Then the best thing happened…
A week into our holiday I started to relax, I stopped taking one of my medications because I judged I didn’t need it anymore. Normally I would never do this. This particular medication was taken PRN which means to only take if needed. I had also ceased my antidepressants which hadn’t worked. Everything was looking good. I did for a short time worry about becoming unwell again. That has happened before when I was well on holidays and unwell when I returned. I was starting to think I had some deep down psychological issues about being at home and now we are required to self isolate.
Despite being in day five of a two week isolation period I have managed to stay sane. I even baked some blueberry muffins today using the berries Mannie, Artie and myself picked at the Blueberry Farm before Christmas. This feat is significant as I have not baked anything in months because I didn’t trust myself to produce something edible. I’m also cooking dinners again and actually enjoying it.
I have managed a lot of things today. I made some cordial using the lemon juice cubes I had frozen and I mixed it with some Ruby Grapefuit juice I squeezed from the last of the fruit. I made some more photo cards too. I’ve plenty more things to keep me occupied which I’ll write about another time.
Meanwhile be amazed at this photo of Dave and I going white water rafting on the Tongirro River in NZ. I amazed myself! With general unfitness and a knee that needs replacing I never thought I would be able to participate and enjoy it.
Till next time Robyn
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