Unfortunately, since my last post which was full of hope I have not got any better. Yesterday, I decided to ring a mental health hospital in Greenwich Sydney so I can be admitted. I have no doubt this is the best direction to take.
I am disappointed that it has come to this but I am desperately seeking an end to three months of anxiety and depression. My daily mood swings have become unmanageable. I have been feeling hopeless, helpless and desperate.
Hopefully, I will be admitted to hospital on Monday. It is not a decision I have taken lightly but the alternative (staying home) is no longer in my best interest.
I have been in hospital previously so I know what to expect. There will be reviews of my medication and progress throughout my stay by psychiatrists. Group discussions led by pscyhogists, art therapy, music therapy, gym and yoga classes and good healthy food. Pity no aquaerobics (a bit too much to expect).
I will miss my family and home, this decision was not made lightly.
Bipolar is a lifelong illness and it has at times been difficult to accept. I am looking forward to experiencing joy and happiness as opposed to depression and anxiety. Occasionally, I ask myself if admission to hospital is a good idea then I look at my current mental health and know yes it is for the best.
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