Over the last month, I have been waking well before the sun. It’s a wonderful part of the day. However, there are so many days I would prefer to be laying quietly snoring beside my loudly snoring husband.
I’m positive that he too would prefer I was not clattering around in the kitchen preparing breakfast and drinking a minimum of three or four cups of Rooibos tea. A very satisfying African Red Bush Tea that is decaffeinated and for me my drug of choice. At the present time. I think I just finished my fifth cup!
This tea features frequently in the series of books by Alexander McCall Smith who writes about The No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency. This is usually not my choice of reading matter but at 5 or 6 in the morning it’s the only type of reading matter I can concentrate on for any length of time as my cognition is impaired by my depression/anxiety. Trying to follow a challenging plot and remember characters is impossible.
However, as the day moves along I can tackle something more challenging. I recommend Boy Swallows Universe by Trent Dalton I just finished it recently. That Deadman Dance by Kim Scott and All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr both I read many months ago and would read again. When my scrambled brain will let me.
Being able to read is a significant positive when I am unwell. It calms my anxiety and diffuses the dreadful thoughts. Last episode of depression I was unable to read. I tried and tried but it did not help. It was a devasting!
Getting up before the sun is not fun for me just because I often feel lower in mood with thoughts of doom and gloom and almost crippling anxiety. That’s when I need to BREATHE often a challenge. Focus on the moments also a challenge. Now the medication is starting to give me a window of hope. YAY! I hope their positive effects will continue to hold me in a stable flying position.
A bit of a rambling journal today. Just to be silly here is one of our ex Bantam Roosters who crows after I get out of bed. I played around with this one in Photoshop.
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