Monthly Archives: October 2019

I’m struggling today with the morning blues. I know I will feel better once my medication kicks in. Right now I feel dreadful. Every morning I feel low. I get up early because I can’t sleep, I shower and eat breakfast then I try to read a book. I’m reading Alexander McCall Smith’s The No.1Continue reading “Watch your Thoughts”

I visited my psychologist yesterday. We had a fruitful discussion. There were a few tears of frustration on my part. All due to my thinking here I am again talking with my psychologist. Distressed that the Black Dog has made yet another appearance in my life not long after the previous episode. Why me! PleaseContinue reading “SMART Goals”

I stuffed around today to try and share the image below. Amazingly I kept my cool and only swore a little bit. Well, maybe a bit more than a little. Journaling/blogging whatever you want to call it has in the past and is now a cathartic activity. It’s a releasing of emotions a clearinghouse forContinue reading “The Best Kind of Day”

I imagine part of a co-pilots job is to assist the pilot to maintain a safe altitude. When I’m unwell mentaly I usually recognize the symptoms when I’m dropping altitude too fast and I’m about to dip down to a dangerous level, curled up in bed in the foetal position. Luckily I have good co-pilots.Continue reading “Co-Pilots”

Taken from the proverb “a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush,” which means that having something, even if it is a lesser quantity, is better than taking the chance of losing it in order to attain something else that seems more desirable. Is this contentment? I think it is. To be happy with what one has. To stop strivingContinue reading “A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.”

This morning was a challenging one. In fact, many mornings are challenging. Thanks to modern psychiatric medicine, psychiatrists and psychologists. I’m still standing and breathing. Words though are tough little buggers that don’t always do want you want them too and sometimes they disappear altogether. Where do they go? Tomorrow it is twelve years sinceContinue reading “Words and Loved Ones Slip Away”

I’m struggling to write in my journal so I’ll tell you three things I did today and my three gratitudes. Firstly I got out of bed. When you are severely depressed getting out of bed can be very, very, very difficult. That’s a big positive. Secondly, I went to aquaerobics. Exercise is a well-known factorContinue reading “When life gives you lemons.”

It’s not all plain sailing for me over this past month as I muddle along through each day. Mostly not knowing if I’m going to be curled up in bed feeling as dark as the rainclouds I wish we would get or looking at a rose and thinking how blessed I am to be ableContinue reading “Roses and Music”

Over the last month, I have been waking well before the sun. It’s a wonderful part of the day. However, there are so many days I would prefer to be laying quietly snoring beside my loudly snoring husband. I’m positive that he too would prefer I was not clattering around in the kitchen preparing breakfastContinue reading “Good Morning Sunshine”

It’s been eighteen months since I last wrote on my blog. I’m a bit rusty. It’s taken at least ten minutes relearning how to use it. I hope in the end it makes sense. About four weeks ago I fell into an emotional black hole. I didn’t just slide I plummeted into a space ofContinue reading “Challenges”