I have had major episodes of depression over the last 18 years starting inexplicably when I was 40. I have had four extended times in hospital to review medication and to receive group and individual therapy. The last three episodes came one after the other with only a few months in between. I managed the last two episodes to stay at home whilst seeing my psychologist once a week and my psychiatrist once a fortnight sometimes sooner.
During times of Depression and Anxiety it is very, very, difficult to convince yourself that you will and you can get better. Especially when you are in the very blackest, deepest, darkest hole Curled up in your bed wishing for an end to suffering.
Consider this….you have two choices one you get better, two you don’t. Which do you choose. If you choose the first how can you go about getting better. What can you do? Ask for help, give some of the advice a go, keep trying, focus on what helps and work on that. None of this is easy but none of it’s impossible. Small steps, positive self talk, be kind to yourself, small achievable goals.
I understand very well how depression colours your thoughts, how irrational those thoughts can be. Remember they are thoughts and thoughts can be changed. There are many skills we all learn in life from walking to talking. None come without constant practise. It’s the same with teaching ourselves how to think another way which is called Cognitive Therapy. A way that allows us to turn our depressed negative thoughts around. It’s possible. It’s realistic. It’s achievable. One step, one day at a time. If we struggle, stumble and fall that’s part of the practise. Pick yourself up and practise some more. You can do it. It’s not impossible.
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